So I'm supposed to be working. Actually I'm supposed to be working harder than usual cause I've been forced to take a half day from the good job to go to a lame required meeting for the bad one. I'm supposed to be trying to squeeze eight hours of work into four.
But I'm not. Tee hee.
Actually far from it. I'm incredibly checked out right now and my 70 more minutes until I get to leave here and head home for a bit before going downtown and pretending that I care about what my bosses are going to be just as unenthused about telling us as we are to hear it is draggggging.
It's kind of been a bit of a problem actually; lately I find it hard to get motivated at work. I think it might be because I have to spend the first few hours of every day determining which job I need to focus on.
Let's see...am I an administrator who will expertly and efficiently keep our department running smoothly? Or am I a sales person who will feverishly close deals and make lots of dollar dollar bills?
What's that? My only option is to be a half-assed version of both who never really gets either job done properly cause my attention is constantly being diverted away? Hmmm...
Oh well. I do still love my job and hope that they will bring in my replacement very soon so I can do my real job as amazingly as I know I can. But until then I have a feeling that my levels of meh are going to remain rather high.
I'm actually shocked that I'm not all sorts of down right now Lucky Readers. I found out yesterday that my favorite NPR show The Bryant Park Project - the one that I listen to while at work that makes me laugh out loud, provides a great mix of real news coverage and fluff pieces, and keeps me sane on the days when customers are pushing me to the brink - is being canceled. It's a very sad day made even sadder by the fact that NPR thus far hasn't provided any opportunities for the loyal listeners to try to help save the program. I'm admittedly taking it kind of personally, but it's become a fixture in my work day. I hate the idea of seeing it go.
Also I'm having a bit of a tiff with one of my friends and although we are on speaking terms it's clearly strained and it's rough for me. I won't delver into further details, but I will say that although I'm not mad I am very frustrated by some things that have been said, and I hope that I'll be able to fully forgive them soon. Thus far no luck though...
However, despite the unfortunateness I'm very chipper. I'm enjoying the balance I've been able to establish between my work and home life (I know I may only be 23 and have no family of my own and all those other truly adult responsibilities, but juggling two jobs, friends, and family has been much more difficult than I thought it would be), I have my new car which is amazing and lovely and such a weight off my shoulders despite the second large debt I now am carrying in addition to my school loans, and I'll be visiting Awesome Former Roomie this weekend and I simply cannot wait to see her and my animal nephews.
Oh! And only about five more days until I see Dark Knight. I literally cannot wait. Seriously, my leg is shaking just thinking about it.
So I'm happy y'all. Happy and enthused. Happy and enthused and anxious. It's proving to be a good mix.
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